not now,

Y Friday, April 06, 2007

&i'm currentyl listening to
prelude 12/21 by AFI
its a short song with simple lyrics (1.42 mins)
but if you ponder deeply upon the lyrics
and try to reflect it somehow into your life
you may probably think:
yeah. perhaps so. that's me. happened before.
well, at least that's what i felt.

thank you Kok Hua <3 and Minn
for being there for me always
Phyllis for hearing me speak
Ode, i wish you all the best with *ahem* (:

yes yes
i always say this whenever i come back blogging
i'm sorry
for being so lazy
to blogand update
I AM OH- SO SO SO SOOORRY~~
-.-

anyways,
meeting Kok Hua <3 ltr at cake shop ^^
to watch how cake is being made and probably design it
3 days ago,
i designed this lil cake
2 days ltr
SOMEONE BOUGHT IT!
and i (retartedly) couldn't stop jumping around the cake shop (:
teehees.

so,
lately,
indeed
life's been so fucked up
twisted
ironic
ridiculous
&more.
its ok.
i'll be FINE
you'll see.
lol
what the fuck am i saying?
i make no sense literally.
oh well.
i hv no say
what's there left for me to do?

lots of happenings
can't recall
don't bother
oh,
CO got silver (:
-clap clap-
we've could hv gotten a gold
oh well,
we just hv to accept it
but hey,
we've maintained it, didn't we?
all i rmbed was
that i looked like a fish
and that i day dreamed throughout the 15 mins or so.
so ya,
i'm sry.

and now,
here we go again,
sch anni is here.
oh boy.
my poor instrument
forever going out of tune
its not easy
trying to tune back 144 string as accurately as possible.
each "bridge" has like 1 to 5 strings
you imagine
ppl taking liquid paper and kua-ing your qin
and qin zhu to kua
its not wrong using qin zhu to play randomly
but kua-ing it
will make it go outta tune
and its just not easy
you hv to understand sometimes.
i'm sry i don't know what i'm saying.
screw mr fami
however you spell his name
fickled minded
oh well,
I HV NO SAY!!
WHAT THE FUCK CAN I DO?!
nth.
hahas.
-.-
not funny.

AND SO LET EVERYTHING BE FUCKED UP,
FOR I HV NO SAY.
I CAN
AND HV NTH TO DO.
AMONGST ALL,
I AM INFERIOR.
YOU'VE DEFEATED ME,
AND I SURRENDER.

vulnerable;
Y
12:05 PM