Y Tuesday, October 10, 2006
motherFUCKER lahz. so fucking pissed off now lahz. na bei. nvr expected that my close god- relative could have just hate me lahz. fuck lahz. and someone like wrote on he blog that she hated me and all. say wadd. i act cute. scream scream here and there. say me COPYCAT. say me this and that lahz. she still can put that she got DIAO me and gimme BU SHUANG de look lorhz. na bei. i'm not pissed with her bcoz of wadd she had written but i'm just so pissed coz i can't belive the fact she hates, she wouldn't confront and tell me that she doesn't likes the way i am so that i can change and we still can be in good terms or sth. but she just like pretended that like she's OK with me when she's actually not. even another classmate. i mean like. like Aqilah lahz...
she wasn't that happy with me coz i always like talk to Jun Lin and all but really lahz, c'mon lorhz, not i'm stealing him away frm her right?? i mean like they're so shy, they dun talk to each other so i did advice jun lin to talk to aqilah coz she did tell me once that she wants him to make the first move to call her. i did wadd i should have done but the problem is that jun lin is too shy. and F.Y.I. shy is an excuse not a reason. wdv. so Aqilah got Huda to like tell me to like understand that Aqilah is (blah blah blah) so ya. i dun really talk to Jun Lin now. i mean that's fine lahz. but like Aqilah still not see me not so shuang lidat. oh, coz you noe why? she's with that god- relative's "side" now. wadd da fuck can i fucking do? nth. same for that god- relative.
at least Huda isn't that bad. not saying that my other friends or other god family are bad or anything but ya, you understand. its like that day i was afraid that Chee Hao may break with me again or sth lidat then Aqilah was like,"break lahz break lahz!" obviously that would be super hurtful to someone who has experience heartbreaks before. she knows i suffered alot. but she had never suffered before. so she wouldn't know. then its like Huda sms me to apologies abt wadd Aqilah said but i didn't mind. see, if like you were to tell me wadd's going on then i can change and make things easier for everyone and everyone can live happily ever again. i mean like.. ARGH! (its best to just keep some comments to myself)
so the guy that i used to like now has a stead. he told me who. ha! i suspected and expected and my inferences never went wrong. screwed. i now OFFICIALLY GOTTEN OVER HIM COZ NOW i'm a lil pissed with him too. (: thank GOD Hui Zhen xiao lao gong made a lil happier. if not. WOOHOO! i'll go insane again and again and again.
today science and literature. not too bad. during lit everyone slept for like..more than half an hour. so you could imagine how easy and long the paper was suppose to be and how long everyone takes to finish our paper. tmr geog only i think. i dunno.
then today chase ppl and wack ppl. like the good ol' days. haha. x) and i cut myself during science while playing with my penknife coz i was so bored. and i hurt myself again when i was trying to fix back my yang qin. lawls.
if only everyone could have told me where i've gone wronbg and why they're just so pissed with me. haiix.
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