Y Saturday, October 28, 2006
still crying and tearing . but thank god i'm getting over him . wadd de hell . i noe he'll get irritated if i msg him everyday so i only msg him like once a day . fuck . last night he told me to call a number . then i did . the one who answered my call , was a girl . she told me off like fuck hell lahz . she scold me wadd , na bei ji bai and all that thing . then she ask me for an explanation for every qn she asks me then she backfires them at me . then i cried . then she said ( in chinese ) , " pls hor . i hate those kinda of ppl who cry one hor . " then i stopped for a while . she scolded me and told me off lahz . then she told me to hung up so i did . then i cried . then Chee Hao msg me , " pretended " and asked me wadd happened . then i told him , then he said , " okie fuck off " . then i msged Kok Hua but he didn't reply so i msg Joseph instead then he comfort me then i called Kok Hua then i roughly told him wadd happened bcoz i could bearly talk from all that crying . i almost vomitted lahz . then Joseph called . kok Hua told me to wait for 20 mins . -.- waste my tme . then Kok Hua , Joseph and me talked for a while until zhu wei ba came in and talked for a while oso . then we talked . then Kok Hua went to bathe so me and Joseph talked like hell lahz . haha . knn . if that Chee Hao really dowan to patch then say lahz . if he doesn't want to be frenz , y can't he just tell me himself ? wdv th fuck happened on Sunday was just a fucking misunderstanding and he sarcastically said that i was lying . so wadd de fuck can i do lahz . and ya . i'm not trying to be mean but he's too much and too useless lahz . if he wants to scold , y can't he do it himself ?? perhaps he's too gutless or shameless or sth to just break it to me at my face , he got someone else to do so on his behalf . and so , he got a girl to do th job okiie . a GIRL to come and scold th fuck shit outta me . =_= useless right ? knn . and its like so wadd de fuck lahz . and he still like owes me so many things . like my Tokyo Drift DVD and my Final Fantasy 7 DVD , my Nokai 7260 and so many things lahz . na bei . BLEH ! enough is enough . i've shed and wasted enough tears for him . if he comes crawling back to me ( which is impossible ) , th ans is definitely a NO - NO . frens i dun mind actually . phhew . got this anger off my chest . i'm feeling much better oredi . i'm not trying to be mean to say all these things but really lahz . i oso nvr expect myself to hate him so much now . th past is th past and will always be as such . its just another entry down memory lane and it will soon be forgotten . hopefully .
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